When night comes ( I feel empty )

Goodbye

on that day you left,
I just waved good bye as usual
as if we were to meet again
in this city
I'll remain with a smile
and look at the stars, praying,
and will be here

I want to be the sky for you
whenever I look up,
I want to feel that I'm not alone
Even if I'm far away
let there be a place I can return to
I'm still living happily in this city without you
because I feel that that's the one thing I can do now
there's a hidden meaning to all things that happen
because I'll always be here
after you rest your tired heart
I wish for a better tomorrow
and fall asleep like the young children

this vast world is connected
the white clouds will flow
and turn into wind to reach you
will my voice reach you? 
I couldn't say those overflowing feelings for you

I want to be the sky for you
whenever I look up,
I want to feel that I'm not alone
even if I'm far away
let there be a place I can return to
let there be a place I can return to

Just a mere euphoria...... or whaaaat???

I'm amazed.Your words never once fail to impress me.

Dear stranger,
          Whoever you are, your honesty that lies beneath you is my saviour. Even when its just only the first time I read your arts, they get to me. I cried cause they are amazingly beautiful.

Dear stranger,
            Although sometimes you make state ur childish opinion, I found it just your way of showing your vulnerable cute side :-) And I'm glad to know that you have your funny side.

Dear stranger,
            Thou I know for sure you will not read this, I put it here so just that one day, I can remember that I once have feel the most strangest tingling amazing feeling ever.

Your arts of honesty and writing through soul has making me head over heels of them making me check on 'that space' just to see them :-)

THANK YOU SO MUCH.I LOVE YOU :-*

Ceramah terkesan moga melekat.

Sebenarnya,

Aku memang banyaaaaaaaak gilaaaaaaaa soalan dalam otak.

Memandangkan aku dah lupa, jadi..

Aku tengah dengar prof muhaya kat tv 9.

Dia suruh pegang pen.
Genggam erat2.

Pegi la amek pen!

Genggam kuat2...Then......

Sakit tak??

Sakit???

Macam tu lah kalau perasaan yang disimpan dari zaman tok kaduk...

Kalau dilepas pen tu, kan dah tak sakit???

Dendam.Benci.Marah.

Memaafkan adalah jalan terbaik.

Terima kasih prof muhaya!

(Kalau ego aku ni boleh tukar jadik emas, akulah yang paling kaya kat bumi ni! Lololololol)

Poetry feeling

There are you in a dark corner
Watching another you standing under light
Holding every pains everyday you suffer
Trying to split between what's wrong and what's right.

Life is a wonder to every lost soul,
Reaching for a helper hand thou its always a foul,
Stepping forward is never a choice,
While backing down no less empty of joy.

Maksud mendalam

Everyone has their own perception on every situation.

Everything happen for reasons.

That is why everyone deserved forgiveness.

Even so, thats not the excuse for any other people to do it.

Escapism itself is also a reason which majority cannot accept.

But again, SINNERS are WAAAAAAAYY BETTER than QUITTERS!

...........?

Hai blog!

Bilamana aku mula menaip, bermulalah juga monolog dalaman aku sendiri.

Kenapa??
Sebab aku memang tahu dan seyakinnya,

Aku pun dah lupa apa nk tulis.
Sekian.

Ps:penyakit lupa/otak berkedut kronik 2

If you know what I mean

Setiap kali aku ditahap emosi yg kronik, blog adalah satu medium utk aku MERAPU.

Aik, tadi aku mcm ingat je ape aku nk tules. Tp dh lupe plak. Sumpah aku tak tipu.

Aku rasa mmg aku mmg ade simpton penuaan ni.

Otak bekedut yg kronik.

Kawan 1

Kawan.
Semua orang pun ada kawan.
Seorang. Mahupun ber orang-orang.
Tetap akan ada kawan.

Tahu apa maksud kawan??
Tahu. Tapi persepsi lain orang, lain pula makna kawan tu kan?

Kawan. Secara umumnya, adalah orang yang menemani seseorang kemana2.
Lalu, apa yang membezakan kawan dengan bayang2?
Dengan personal assistant?
Dengan tour guide?

Jadi, makna kawan pada aku adalah amat dalam.

Bukan semua benda kau akan cerita kat mak kau.
Untuk para anak tengah, emak bukanlah orang terdekat kami. Pada pengalaman akulah. Maaf kalau salah.
Perihal masyarakat sekelas/peer/sebaya, tak seronok juga dibincang dgn kakak.mahupun adik.
Bukan apa, orang yang kita x kenal ni, slalunya tak menarik minat kita. Dah kakak/adik tu xkenal rakan sebaya yg dimaksudkan,respon pun agak hambar. Betol tak?

Jadi,adalah lebih berbaloi kita share dgn org yg nak dgr. Orang yang memberi kita telinganya untuk dipinjam.orang yang memberi feedback yang kita mahukan . Bukan sekadar nak mengikut telunjuk kita. Bukan. Orang yang memberi respon terhadap kata2 mahupun tindakan yg kita ambil. Yang berada di sisi kita bila family kita jauh. Yang ada waktu kita tengah tension study kat kolej dan phone xda kredit. Yang ada sblah katil kita masa kat rumah sewa dan gosip2 sama. Yang kita tanya bila kita ada soalan bodoh. Yang kita carik masa nak pinjam duit dan waktu tu,malu dh nak pinjam duit family. Dan segala mcm perkara yg paling  extreme yg kita akan buat dalam hidup adalah dgn kawan. Bukan family.

Tepuk dada tanya memori.

Me n my sis.